What you feel is not wrong. What you feel ...simply is. Acknowledge your feelings.
Remember, it is not your job to make others feel anything, you need not perform for them, behave a certain way, or feel certain things, but it does help you to talk about what you feel: honestly, and others to understand where you are in your journey. Give yourself permission to be yourself.
I wrote about my journey to help others. There are many lessons. Life is a journey and a classroom. I share my tales of the palliative care, since I lived through it.
This is the time to reach out. What you accept from others (time, energy, support) helps them, too. You should expect to make certain preparations. Forewarned is forearmed. Everyone's journey is different, but there are lessons and things to make the journey easier for you, family and friends.
Remember, you are a beautiful person. "God don't make no junk!"
National Hospice Organization – www.nho.org/ - The National Hospice Palliative Care Organization is the largest nonprofit membership organization representing hospice and palliative care programs and professionals in the United States. The organization is committed to improving end of life care and expanding access to hospice care with the goal of profoundly enhancing quality of life for people dying in America and their loved ones.